Oh, college. I kind of miss you.
This was taken my junior year of college. I haven't gotten crazy personal with this blog yet, but... its about to go there...I went to a private christian school up in Mount Vernon, Ohio, and as you can imagine... it got pretty darn pricey. I've learned now that its nothing to be ashamed of... but I just couldn't afford it anymore. I went for half a semester my junior year and was forced to pack up and leave because I couldn't get a loan to cover my tuition. I was embarrassed, and felt stupid. I had to tell all of my professors, roommates, and friends that I had to leave. For some reason, it made me feel like I just wasn't good enough. I was bitter and didn't understand why this would happen to me.
My amazing roommates (pictured above), threw me a goodbye dinner and we had SUCH a fun time. They made me feel loved and like everything would be just fine. So, a few short days later.. I came home... and Caleb really played a huge part in this. I was confused on the person I wanted to be, where my attitude was heading, and I was scared. How was I going to manage?! School was all I had ever known.
I got back in touch with a good friend, Marie, who was the one that brought me to God in the first place so many years ago. I truly don't think my life would be the same without her. I seeked a lot of advice from her, and along with her and the help of my friends and Caleb who prayed with me and for me... I got through it. I prayed for God to make me feel like I had a purpose, even when it was hard to believe I had one.
A few months down the road, I landed a great job at a financial firm where I could analyze finance and work on retirement planning. I know, it doesn't sound all that great... but I TRULY feel like I am helping people, and I've learned that I am of value. I DO have worth. God DOES love me and wants me to succeed. Now that Caleb and I are engaged to be married, I realize... God knew JUST what He was doing when he let that heartache into my life. He used it to mold me into the person I am supposed to be.
Now, I have joy.
I don't always know why we go through things we don't understand... but I can assure you, God does. Take comfort in that, friends.
I'd love to get to know ALL of you on a more personal level, so feel free to leave a link to a post you've written that can inspire others. YOU are an example of those around you, and you DO matter.
Happy weekend :)