Its pretty crazy to think if it weren't for ONE decision being made, our entire lives would be different. Have any of you ever thought about this?
Last night...I received quite a few bits of bad, sad, and just wrong news. I could choose to let these things get me down...but I am choosing to look on the bright side of things.
I know my blog is mainly a few things;
...but today, I want to let you in on some of the more real aspects of my life.
Here we go...
My parents got divorced when I was 9. I was forced to grow up immediately and take care of my baby brother, who was only 3 and had no clue what was happening. This forced me to become more independent.
I had two jobs as soon as I turned 15 and a half... my mom, grandparents or cousin would drive me to work 20 minutes away because I wasn't even old enough to have a license yet. I was working nearly 40 hours a week all throughout high school. It's because of this I learned what hard work means.
I paid for everything on my own. Food, clothes, driving school, doctors appointments, you name it. This made me appreciate the value of a dollar.
I was ripped out of college mid-semester my junior year because my family couldn't afford it. I was embarrassed, mortified, and heart broken. I had to pack my bags, say goodbye to my friends, and leave with a car full of everything I owned. I was going back home...this felt like failure...but through this heartache I realized I had something better for me waiting back home. A real job. One that would help me with my education, one that would lift me up, and encourage me.
I went through a very rough relationship a few years back, there were high's and lows...and when I say low's I mean low's. We both made stupid decisions, heck...we were only children. However, it was through this relationship I found who I really wasn't. It was also through this relationship that I found who I was. I was a better person than I gave myself credit to be...and I realized I was lovable despite my unfortunate past.
I really debated on even sharing this one... but it is truth hour, right?
My mom went on vacation to Hawaii last February, and never came back. I miss her and our relationship every single day. I struggle with my emotions on this topic on a daily basis, but I DO know that every single thing happens for a reason, one way or another...and it is not about me. I do know that through THIS heartache especially, God will bring something amazing. I have that faith in Him.
I don't share that last one especially with you for any sort of pity, but for any of you to know that us bloggers ALL have "things" going on, even when the surface may seem so clean.
We are all a little broken... but I think that makes us beautiful.
I'm thankful that through my past, things worked out all the way they should.
If I hadn't had to leave college...I wouldn't be marrying the man of my dreams in 18 little days.
If I wasn't the daughter of a divorced couple, I may not have the steady head I do today.
If I hadn't worked so hard in school to support myself, I may have ended up drowning in debt.
I'll never know "what could have been"...but one thing is for sure.
God had a plan for me..
that plan was Caleb.
I am so thankful for this community and what it brings to my life...I can't thank you all enough for coming back to read my rambles on a daily basis. I truly appreciate EVERY single comment you leave, email we exchange, and story that is told.
This is one of my favorite verses, and I truly believe it.
Have a fabulous day, friends.