Saturday, November 3, 2012

Oh, college.



Oh, college. I kind of miss you.

This was taken my junior year of college. I haven't gotten crazy personal with this blog yet, but... its about to go there...I went to a private christian school up in Mount Vernon, Ohio, and as you can imagine... it got pretty darn pricey. I've learned now that its nothing to be ashamed of... but I just couldn't afford it anymore. I went for half a semester my junior year and was forced to pack up and leave because I couldn't get a loan to cover my tuition. I was embarrassed, and felt stupid. I had to tell all of my professors, roommates, and friends that I had to leave. For some reason, it made me feel like I just wasn't good enough. I was bitter and didn't understand why this would happen to me.

My amazing roommates (pictured above), threw me a goodbye dinner and we had SUCH a fun time. They made me feel loved and like everything would be just fine. So, a few short days later.. I came home... and Caleb really played a huge part in this. I was confused on the person I wanted to be, where my attitude was heading, and I was scared. How was I going to manage?! School was all I had ever known.

I got back in touch with a good friend, Marie, who was the one that brought me to God in the first place so many years ago. I truly don't think my life would be the same without her. I seeked a lot of advice from her, and along with her and the help of my friends and Caleb who prayed with me and for me... I got through it. I prayed for God to make me feel like I had a purpose, even when it was hard to believe I had one.

A few months down the road, I landed a great job at a financial firm where I could analyze finance and work on retirement planning. I know, it doesn't sound all that great... but I TRULY feel like I am helping people, and I've learned that I am of value. I DO have worth. God DOES love me and wants me to succeed. Now that Caleb and I are engaged to be married, I realize... God knew JUST what He was doing when he let that heartache into my life. He used it to mold me into the person I am supposed to be.

Now, I have joy.


I don't always know why we go through things we don't understand... but I can assure you, God does. Take comfort in that, friends.

I'd love to get to know ALL of you on a more personal level, so feel free to leave a link to a post you've written that can inspire others. YOU are an example of those around you, and you DO matter.

Happy weekend :)

15 comments:

  1. So sweet for you to share your heart. love the last picture of you. i never understand the hard times, but i know there are always life lessons learned through those seasons! love your heart girlie. happy weekend. xoxo

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  2. Beautiful post. I don't really have an inspiring post to share with you, but I love how God works. Just when you feel down on your luck, God has a way of making things work out at just the right time. :)

    P.S. Cute blog!! ;)

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  3. Wonderful post. We truly all have different paths. And it's so hard sometimes to understand why things happen. Thanks for sharing.

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  4. This is truly a wonderful post. I really enjoy your writing style and the way you convey things.

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  5. your honesty is beautiful. ok so my student loans just came in, since i recently graduated...and its so daunting. so proud of what you did, because your future self will thank you for it!
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  6. Good for you for writing this post! I loved it! Stories where everything works out in the end make me so happy! :)

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  7. It's so true - everything happens for a reason even when it seems it is the WORST. EVER. There's something better when one door closes we just have to find it sometimes.

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  8. thanks so much for sharing your heart. this is such a great testament to romans 8:28. praise the Lord for his faithfulness in your life! :)

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  9. what a good post of God being faithful with his plan! sometimes it is hard to see it when you're in it, but it's encouraging that you can look back and see the "why" of his plan! thanks for sharing!

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  10. Things always have a way of working out... even if it is not the way we expected. And what a fun group of gals you had to hang out with. You'll have those memories to cherish forever. :)

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  11. Aww. This is such an awesome post. College is fun, but married life is SO MUCH BETTER. So glad things worked out so great!

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  12. Kayla, you are so awesome. I find the most difficult thing in life is when things don't go how WE think they should. But, just as you realized, God has a greater plan for all of us!

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  13. Aww, your blog is so cute! I loved your pics of you just living life...and having a blast!! This post had a great message that I can definitely relate to! Glad I stumbled upon your blog tonight!

    -Tiffany
    http://stylesidebar.blogspot.com/

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  14. Interesting post. You are lucky to have such nice friends. :)

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  15. I am so glad I found this post. (and your blog!). You have such a positive spirit that come right off of the computer screen. I went through an almost identical scenario also during the middle half of my junior year of college. I actually started my blog during the time I was home and feeling rotten about life! Exactly what my first blog post ever was about. http://mlemoore.blogspot.com/2010/09/its-blog-time.html
    I always said though, I learned more in my time away from school than I would have ever learned being school. Talk about a life experience! Thanks for sharing :)

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